Pure Love

                                                     Mr. Keaton Allen

                                                                                
                                      Keaton loves his pacifier!

                                     Kendall and Daddy.......sooo sweet!

                                Keaton all snuggled up in Mommy's arms!

                                 Kendall sucking on his thumb!

                                     Kendall looking at Daddy.......love!

                                       Kisses to Kendall from Daddy!

                               Keaton and Daddy.....all smiles!

Andrew and I were visiting with the boys, just like we do every night. Last night seemed really special to me. Andrew was holding on to Kendall for a while and then he held Keaton for a while. I held Kendall while Andrew held Keaton. It is so sweet to see Andrew with the boys. He does an amazing job with them. He has changed diapers, helped with baths, and checked temps.....but the best thing he has done is he has given all of his love to the boys. Andrew I love you so much and I know the boys do too. One of the nurses walked by Andrew last night and said, "He has love written all over his forehead!" This just melted my heart to hear her say that and it is even better when you see him holding the boys. Keaton and Kendall, you are blessed to have an amazing father who is going to love you with all his heart. I have realized there is no love like the love you have for your kids. It took no time for the boys to win our hearts. We love you boys and pray we can all be home soon. Keep being strong.....you boys have won the battle already.

Keaton and Kendall got the okay to move to the front of the NICU. This is great for the boys....this means we have reached another goal. The boys will get moved to the front the next time they move babies around. Daddy and I are so proud of them. They are cutest little guys and maybe we are a little proud, but the nurses keep telling us how cute, handsome, and precious they are too. I think the Diesel boys are going to grow up and do some pretty great things in life. Love you boys!

Tears of Happiness

Kendall Chayse Diesel

                                                              Keaton Allen Diesel

                                                                Keaton and Kendall

                                                                    Kendall Chayse

                                                                   Kendall Chayse

                                                              Daddy and Keaton

                                              Mommy giving Kendall a bath!

                                                                  Keaton Allen

                                                  Keaton sleeping really well!

                                                            The Diesel Family

                                                                                  
It has been a little while since I have made a new blog. I have been busy with my little boys and I wouldn't have it any other way. My boys are the world to me! I have had many tears lately, but they are tears of happiness. I am blessed with two healthy baby boys that were just born a little early. I thank God every single day that my boys are here and healthy. They have wonderful nurses and doctors looking over them. Kendall and Keaton are doing great. The boys only have their feeding tubes and we will try to start bottle feeding next week, because they will be thirty-four weeks on Sunday. The boys need to be thirty-four weeks to do this, because they should now be able to remember to breathe, suck on the bottle, and swallow all at the same time. They are getting so big already. Andrew and I change the boy's diapers, hold them, take their temp., give them a bath, and tell them how much we love them!

Andrew and I have noticed just how big they are getting. Keaton and Kendall have been lifting up their heads when laying on their stomachs, grabbing things with a pretty tight grip, using their lungs to cry a little more :) and keeping their eyes open for a longer period of time. The boys have gained some weight as well. Kendall now weighs 4lbs 3.2 oz and Keaton weighs 4lbs 4.0 oz and they are both 18 inches long. Both boys are eating 37 ml of breast milk.....we will see how long mommy can keep up with these growing boys. Keaton loves his pacifier and has been crying a little more when it is time to eat...the nurse said this is a good thing.....it breaks my heart to hear them cry. I know they are fine when they are crying.....it gives me tears in my eyes.....it reminds me of the very first time I heard them cry when they were born. The boys are wearing clothes now and look so adorable in them. We got our first family picture of the four of us. It was taken on the nurses camera. I can't believe they are two weeks old already. They are just precious and doing so well! Now that Kendall has his oxygen off.......the boys are def. identical. It will be a challenge for us to tell them apart. I can only imagine all the tricks they will try to pull with us. :)

I am now staying in the Legg Hotel (Ryan and Holly Legg's house). My stay here this week has been wonderful. I am so thankful that they have taken me in. It has been so nice to catch up with Holly....it reminds me of when we were younger and had sleepovers all the time. She is a wonderful mom to Payton and I hope to be half as good to my boys. I will never to be able to repay them for all they have done by taking me in. A huge thank you to Holly, Ryan and baby Payton!

Andrew has been working right now while he can. He drives over every single evening to see the boys. He sure is one proud dad! He is going to be amazing with them. Once we all get to come home, I think he will take some time away from work and spend at home with us. I can't wait for us to all be home together. I have so many emotions right now. I cry happy tears because we are blessed with two amazing little boys, and I cry sad tears because I just want us all together under one roof. It has been a roller coaster ride for a while now, but will all be worth it in the end. Once again, I am very blessed to have these little boys and to have them here and healthy.

I came home on Tuesday afternoon to watch the CMS softball team win regionals! It was so good to see the girls and especially see a win! I am very proud of the girls.....good luck at state on Saturday!

Moving Up!

Mommy and Daddy are very proud of our little boys. They have both moved up into the next room (middle room). There is one more room before getting to go home. The NICU had more babies come in and they moved the stable babies and guess what.......the Diesel boys got to move! They are strong little fighters and have done a great job. They now are taking 30 ml of breast milk through the feeding tube every three hours. Mommy is getting nervous about keeping up with these hungry boys. Keaton and Kendall are growing up so fast.....I want them to slow down already. I sat and held Keaton for a really long time yesterday. He had his eyes open the whole time just looking around. They are both such handsome little guys. Kendall is doing a great job as well. He had his eyes open yesterday for a while as well. I try to take turns holding them from day to day. I know we don't get that chance to hold them every single day, but the days we get we take it all in. They are just too precious. There is no better feeling then holding your baby and knowing everthing is going to be ok. When daddy and I hold them we just get this calm feeling and many emotions running through.....it is just amazing what God can do. We are so blessed to have two precious miracle babies.

Andrew and I's world revolves around Keaton and Kendall now. We are so in love with our boys. Daddy is very protective of them already and can't wait to get all of us home under one roof. I am coming home Friday evening and will be back on Saturday. This will be my second time coming home in ten weeks. It was very hard to leave them the last time and I am sure it won't be any better this time. I feel guilty when I leave them, but I know that they need there rest. I know they are in great hands.....we can call the NICU at any point in time to check on them so this does help a little. I feel that we have a million things to do before the boys come home, but I never had that chance to finish up these things before the boys arrived. We will see if it all gets done :)
Here are some pictures from the other day!

                                                              Bright eyed Keaton!

                                                          Streching his arms out!

                      Love this picture.....Keaton and Daddy!

                                                        Kendall snoozing away!

          Kendall finishing up his bath and getting weighed.

                                                              Keaton snoozing away!

                                                            Keaton getting weighed!

                                                                   Kendall Chayse

Healthy Boys

It has officially been one whole week since Keaton and Kendall made their arrival into the world. We can't believe they are one week already......this is time we can't get back already. Daddy and Mommy are sooo proud of our little boys. They are doing really well. Mommy misses the feeling of them moving around but not the feeling of having to use the bathroom all the time. Daddy has fallen hard for these boys....he is an amazing dad and loves them oh so much. I love watching daddy hold Keaton and Kendall and talk to them. He has also been a wonderful husband. He helps me with everything and is really good at putting the breast pump together and washing it out. It is amazing how two precious boys can melt your heart and make you think what in the world would you do without them. We are just on cloud nine with these boys and don't ever plan to come off of it. :)

Kendall and Keaton are doing so well. They are both on room air. Kendall has to have some oxygen every now and then, but overall they are perfect. Yesterday we got to hold Kendall for the first time. We just didn't want to push holding him and then him have a set back. It was hard waiting that long to hold him, but has paid off because he is doing just fine. Neither of the boys have to have the light on them and glasses for jaundice. The number has gone down and continues to go down. They are two strong little boys that have put up a huge fight and have won. I can't say it enough how proud I am of them. Both Keaton and Kendall look just like daddy, and of course daddy just eats that up. As of tonight Keaton weighed 3llbs 13.6 oz and Kendall weighed 3 llbs 14.3 oz and are growing up way too fast. They are eating really well and the Dr. said that they will hopefully move to the next room in a week and in about three weeks they will get to come home if everything is going well still. Daddy and I keep telling the boys to stay strong and we love them so much. Please keep the prayers going.....they have worked!

I finally got the chance to come home. I came home last Saturday evening for the first time in nine weeks. It was def. an emotional ride for me. It was very hard to say goodbye to the boys and leave them overnight with us being in a different state. The NIICU nurses are wonderful and assured me the first night away is the hardest, but I needed to get home and get some rest. Well lets just say I had a ton of energy built up. Daddy and I cleaned some, I did a little in the boy's room, went out to eat (felt guilty about it with the boys not being with us and in the NICU), and crashed on the couch. I didn't even sleep in my bed after being gone that long. I was so tired that I crashed and didn't care about getting up and gong to the bedroom to sleep. My emotions have just been crazy. I will cry for no reason, but Daddy is doing a good job at understanding.

As of today we are going to finish up this week in the Ronald McDonald House (great place), because I will be ok to drive next week. I have been wanting to drive for a while now. I hope that I remember :) I have just felt amazing after my c-section. I was up walking the next day. I think I must have had a lot of energy built up and was ready to walk. Nine weeks in the hospital was def. worth it because we now have two precious angels. I don't even think about being in the hospital for that long now. My whole world now consists of two little boys that look just like daddy!

                                    Daddy's hand compared to Kendall

                                                                    Kendall Chayse

                                       Mommy and Daddy with Kendall

                                          Daddy and Mommy with Keaton

                                                  Mommy and Keaton

                                                               Daddy and Kendall

                                                                 Loving on Keaton

                                                                    Keaton Allen

                                   Kendall covering up his face

                        Keaton sleeping to mommy and daddy

                                  Daddy holding Kendall........love!

Kendall Chayse Diesel

                                                               Keaton Allen Diesel

                                                              Mommy and Kendall

                                                              Kendall Chayse Diesel

Here are some more recent pictures of the boys. I hope you enjoy how precious they are!

Pictures 09/15/2011 - Holding Keaton for the first time!

                                  Mommy holding Keaton for the first time!
                                                     Love him sooo much!

 
                                     Love at first sight!

                               He is soo happy to be in daddy's hands!

                      Daddy holding Keaton for the first time!

                                Looking at Daddy!

Keaton in his new bed! (Isolate)

                           Kendall resting and staying strong.

                            Keaton all kicked back!

Precious baby Kendall

Here are a few pictures from Thursday. We got to hold Keaton for the first time and later that evening he moved into his new bedding (Isolate). Kendall was doing great while we were in there as well. Keaton and Kendall are our precious baby boys and are already three days old come 6:16 pm and 6:17 pm. Mommy and Daddy love them so much!